People have been asking me why I haven`t updated in a long time. The thing is, that up until recently, I have been doing very poorly. I had gastric sleeve surgery almost a year ago, and I was very happy and content being about 70 kilos. I could eat anything, and I felt great about my looks. Then all of a sudden, I started having massive vomiting and diarrhea, and before I knew it, I had lost another 10 kilos! I am now 60 kilos (132 lbs) and eating all I can, but I have to be very careful about not eating too much, because then I will just vomit. I have had two ulcers, which have been treated, also had hair loss and had to have my hair cut twice.

This has been so depressing that I have felt suicidal at times.

Now on the other hand, I have been to a psychologist who specializes in eating disorders, and she has helped me make a list of no food and yes food. I can no longer drink coffee or milk. I only drink tea and vegan milk options, like soy milk and almond milk.

I have been a caffeine addict for too long, and giving up coffee has been hard. I work three times a week now, and I have a cup of tea in the mornings to wake me up. I also choose vegan food options, because I have found it easier to deal with. Have recently been to Turkey and lots of updates are coming up!

Here are pictures of me by the pool at 60 kilos:

And now my hair has finally grown back again, and here are some pics of me in my mom`s beautiful garden:

Love you all and see you soon! I am right now 25 days vomit free and doing so much better!


Finally getting better

I have not vomited in 3 days. Nor have I had any stomach problems. I am on Tramadol for the pain, and I feel so much better than before. I am off the liquid diet, and I now try to eat normal food, in small portions.

I keep trying on clothes and here are some that I can fit into now:

Complications after gastric sleeve

I have been vomiting blood, and I am now on medication for a stomach ulcer. I have been told that I must go back to a liquid diet for a while.

I don`t weigh myself every day anymore. I will do it every week. I am guessing I am about 80 kilos now. I have a lot of problems with vomiting and diarreah, but I am being told that I look good.

At least I am not obese anymore! And when I see pictures of myself, I no longer think that I am so big. Here are some pics from today:

Struggling after gastric sleeve

Today I contacted my dietician Elisabeth Sofie Birkeland because of my struggle with diarreah and vomiting. She told me to stop drinking Fresubin protein drinks and stop using Protifar protein powder, because this could lead to the problems I was having.

She told me it could be a good idea to start making smoothies again, so I blended cottage cheese, yoghurt, blueberries and bananas into a very tasty smoothie. I am so happy to be eating fruit again!


I am also drinking lots of water, as long as it isn`t carbonated.


But the weight is coming off and I am happy about that!

Gastric sleeve update – down 25 lbs

Yesterday it was 14 days since my gastric sleeve surgery at Volvat and it has taken me through heaven and hell. I must say that I wasn`t fully prepared for what I was putting myself through. Here is what happened:


I woke up early, took a shower, got dressed and took a taxi to the hospital. When I arrived early, there was already other patients waiting in line.

We spent some time in bed waiting for our turn, and it took several hours. I got really mad and yelled at one of the nurses. I weighed in at 92 kilos after the pre-op diet. Before I started with the diet I was 95.

I listened to ASMR videos before the surgery and one of my favorite ASMRtists is

Whispering rose

The nurse finally arrived to put the needles in me for intravenous medication, and I spoke to my surgeon dr Hallvard Græslie and the anesthesiologist as well. At about 2 o`clock I was taken in to the surgery room, and everything happened in a hurry. I drifted in to a comfortable sleep, the next thing I know I am waking up in the post-op room with horrible pain in my stomach area. I was given 10 mg of Ketorax. A nurse gave me a Fragmin injection. I had to stay there over night, along with the 8 other patients who had had gastric sleeve or gastric bypass that day. I could hear complaining and moaning all around me.

I was crying, and the wonderful nurses comforted me. I was actually able to get some sleep, just waking up when the nurses put an oxygen mask on me and took my blood pressure and gave me more pain meds.

My sister came to visit me but I was not in a good shape.


I was taken to a 3 patient bedroom, and I was really tired and had no energy whatsoever. We went to the kitchen area to talk to dietician Elisabeth Sofie Birkeland, and we were encouraged to drink a special protein drink. I also drank buillion, and took a pinch of salt. We were encouraged to drink a lot and go for walks by the nurses, but we had no energy. I got sick and tired of listening to the other patients moaning and noises, so I asked to be taken to a one patient room, and eventually I was. I took a shower, and also got my period. Now I understand why I was so miserable the day before and this picture I sent on Snapchat says it all. Completely miserable and hormonal!


My sister visited me again, and I was doing better.

The surgeon dr Græslie stopped by and assured me that everything was fine.

The nurses gave me Ketorax pills and anti nausea pills and Paralgin Major. I was told that I was the patient who had drank the most out of all of us!


It was time to go home, and my dad came to pick me up. I had already been to the pharmacy and bought calcium tablets, multi vitamin, iron tablets and Fresubin protein drinks and Protifar protein powder. I had my first taste of coffee and it was great.

The trip to my home town went ok, but I was dizzy and not feeling it. When we arrived at mom`s I was miserable. Every movement hurt. I was taking Paralgin Major and Paralgin Forte to cope with the pain. I drank Fresubin, milk and coffee.


This is when the vomiting started, usually after breakfast.There was less pain for each day, but I was still on pain meds. I was on a liquid diet, and many times I have regretted the whole surgery, I was jealous of my mom and dad for eating normal food.

I weighed myself every day, and I lost some weight and that made me feel good.

DAY 5-14

I stopped taking pain meds. The sores on my stomach started itching, and they were red.

I started having diarreah really bad, and the vomiting continued for several days.

I have been extremely unhappy at times eating only soups and yoghurt.

One day I weighed in at 85 kilos – that is 10 kilos down!  And I had lost it in only 12 days. So my mom took some pics of me in some of her dresses in a large size (previously I could only wear size extra large) and they looked great. These were clothes that I could only dream of fitting into before. Sorry about the hair and lack of make-up, but the pics were taken as we ate breakfast!


Now I am 84 kilos and that means that I am for my height no longer obese. I am now eating mashed foods. Scrambled eggs are my favorite. I have to be on this diet for 14 days, and then I can slowly start eating normal food. In a month or so I hope to be down to 80 kilos. My dad weighs 78 kilos.(But he is 6 foot 2)

My mood is a lot better as I see an end to the suffering.

One day I was feeling ok, we went to SunnBok and Misjonssentralen Gjenbruk, and I picked up some cool things for my house. It was a reward to myself for losing weight:

Here is a previous blog post about these stores:New look on my wall

I have been through hell with this surgery, but I am now starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.Please keep me in your prayers as I continue this journey…



My diet before gastric sleeve

I am on a low calorie diet which I must stay on until my surgery on July 6th. Today I paid for my surgery (98 000 NOK) and I am getting nervous.


As the months go by, I hope there will be less of me. I am hoping to lose 50 pounds. So there will be less curvaciousness and voluptousness as I transform into a slimmer person. I am praying that I don`t get hanging skin or hair loss. I will write about the good, bad and ugly here on my blog.

I am only allowed to eat low fat products, and I have said goodbye to alcohol, soda and juice. I got a phone call from my dietician yesterday, and I am allowed to contact her any time for advice. Please keep me in your prayers.



Mango smoothie

I love smoothies and when I was at home celebrating my birthday, I made a mango smoothie for me and mom.

What you need:

1 mango


3 bananas

frozen mangoes

soy milk or almond milk

Blend and enjoy the amazing taste of cold mango!

I am now starting my diet before the gastric sleeve surgery, and that means no fruit for 14 days! So I ate what I could before starting the diet. Here are some of the fruit I bought at Global Food: